There's a difference between being afraid of the gun in your face, and being afraid of the possibility for a gun to be put in your face. The former: a response based on present reality - a response based on the circumstances currently in your existence, in the moment. The latter: a response based on an abstraction of the mind - a response to what could be, what might not ever be.
Between the two, which one is really worth the stress - the taxing of emotions - that comes with being afraid?
Usually when I let my mind imagine what it would be like to not pass the exam, I respond based on whatever comes to mind with fear. I was just sitting here thinking about that response and it dawned on me - what am I really afraid of? Is it worth a response of fear?
In the present moment, I'm sitting in my bed with my laptop in my lap, typing out my thoughts. I'm completely comfortable. If I weren't comfortable with this laptop-in-bed situation I could do something to help it - NOW. Sure, something in the next moment could happen that I wouldn't want to happen - but worrying about what could happen in the future does nothing to help me out NOW.
Same with the exam, or any future event. Nothing wrong with being concerned about the future, working right now to make sure things go well in the future - but nothing in the future is worth being afraid.
Word to Jesus.
---
Dontcha just love it when you have one of those moments - where something in your head just snaps, clicks, buzzes, lights up (you know?) - and things just become CLEAR - where life just starts to LOOK different? Yup. Call it inspiration. And motivation for this post.
Showing posts with label God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God. Show all posts
Monday, June 15, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Dear bar exam,
You're SO frustrating!!
I found my inspiration about 7 years ago. Almost exactly 6 years before we met for the first time. I was reading A Civil Action - wasn't even finished reading it actually when it clicked. In one moment, I KNEW I would be an attorney. I KNEW that I was meant to help people like the attorney helped Woburn. I thought about it after that moment - reasoned the decision to become an attorney as I did research on law schools - and the inspiration made complete sense. I've known since I was little that I was put here to serve. I don't know how or why I knew that so early, but I did. I care about social justice. I love to write-research-learn-and I don't mind a good argument. Becoming an attorney just made sense.
And it still makes sense. Being an attorney still feels right - despite the four years of trials and tribulations that was law school - despite the fact that I think most attorneys suck - I still feel like I belong in this profession. And here I am, ready to pass the milestone that is you. Ready, willing and able. But it hasn't happened yet.
I can't wait for the day I can look back and see you in the distance, a haze of blurry, stress-filled memories.
There's much that can be said about things happening in their own perfect timing, according to the schedule set out individually for me by God. When things are right, they're right. It wasn't right the first two times I encountered you. It wasn't my time to pass. This stuff about timing may be true, but the truth is that passing the bar exam isn't about timing. Based on my scores it appears that I actually knew enough law to pass. Maybe I should have practiced more essays. Maybe if I finished the MPT. Maybe I should have done more of Pieper's quizzes. Maybe I shouldn't have left my mother's house while studying. Maybe I shouldn't have worked until a week before.
Maybes aside - I did what I did. I made as much effort as I could have. The point is that it didn't work.
On July 28 and 29, 2009, it needs to work. Otherwise, I will have to move on in November or December (whenever the results come out), knowing that I'm meant to do something else with my life. There are many ways to serve. My talents can be used in ways that have nothing to do with the law. This experience of learning about the law in law school and in my job experience will always have value.
But I haven't given up yet. I can't. I won't. There are a lot of things I'm gonna do differently this time: not taking a class, exercising more, meditating, following a schedule, etc. I'm gonna manage my life better. I've always known my priorities and I'm learning how to work those priorities. The most important thing I've learned in this experience with you is how to Let GOD Lead my success. My relationship with God does come first. He's brought me to this point for a reason and I have to trust that.
Maybe I haven't passed because I needed to learn how to manage my life before passing.
Whatever. As frustrating and annoying as you are, bar exam, I appreciate the opportunity I have had to take you. So many like me - who come from circumstances like mine - dream for the opportunity like the one you present to me. So many like me - who come from similar circumstances, who have been where I am, who intend to be where I am in the near future - are invested in having me (and people like me) pass. I'm thankful for the opportunity to make my dream into a reality.
What's the most frustrating though, is to be this close to making my dream a reality and to be held in the same place for awhile, wondering when I'll get a break. But timing. This is for a reason. All of that jazz. As frustrating and annoying and time compromising as you are, you're just another step towards making my dreams come true. And so, I need you. I need to push through you.
I need pass this July! God be with me.
---
Today's post has been brought to you by inspiration from this. Brilliant.
I found my inspiration about 7 years ago. Almost exactly 6 years before we met for the first time. I was reading A Civil Action - wasn't even finished reading it actually when it clicked. In one moment, I KNEW I would be an attorney. I KNEW that I was meant to help people like the attorney helped Woburn. I thought about it after that moment - reasoned the decision to become an attorney as I did research on law schools - and the inspiration made complete sense. I've known since I was little that I was put here to serve. I don't know how or why I knew that so early, but I did. I care about social justice. I love to write-research-learn-and I don't mind a good argument. Becoming an attorney just made sense.
And it still makes sense. Being an attorney still feels right - despite the four years of trials and tribulations that was law school - despite the fact that I think most attorneys suck - I still feel like I belong in this profession. And here I am, ready to pass the milestone that is you. Ready, willing and able. But it hasn't happened yet.
I can't wait for the day I can look back and see you in the distance, a haze of blurry, stress-filled memories.
There's much that can be said about things happening in their own perfect timing, according to the schedule set out individually for me by God. When things are right, they're right. It wasn't right the first two times I encountered you. It wasn't my time to pass. This stuff about timing may be true, but the truth is that passing the bar exam isn't about timing. Based on my scores it appears that I actually knew enough law to pass. Maybe I should have practiced more essays. Maybe if I finished the MPT. Maybe I should have done more of Pieper's quizzes. Maybe I shouldn't have left my mother's house while studying. Maybe I shouldn't have worked until a week before.
Maybes aside - I did what I did. I made as much effort as I could have. The point is that it didn't work.
On July 28 and 29, 2009, it needs to work. Otherwise, I will have to move on in November or December (whenever the results come out), knowing that I'm meant to do something else with my life. There are many ways to serve. My talents can be used in ways that have nothing to do with the law. This experience of learning about the law in law school and in my job experience will always have value.
But I haven't given up yet. I can't. I won't. There are a lot of things I'm gonna do differently this time: not taking a class, exercising more, meditating, following a schedule, etc. I'm gonna manage my life better. I've always known my priorities and I'm learning how to work those priorities. The most important thing I've learned in this experience with you is how to Let GOD Lead my success. My relationship with God does come first. He's brought me to this point for a reason and I have to trust that.
Maybe I haven't passed because I needed to learn how to manage my life before passing.
Whatever. As frustrating and annoying as you are, bar exam, I appreciate the opportunity I have had to take you. So many like me - who come from circumstances like mine - dream for the opportunity like the one you present to me. So many like me - who come from similar circumstances, who have been where I am, who intend to be where I am in the near future - are invested in having me (and people like me) pass. I'm thankful for the opportunity to make my dream into a reality.
What's the most frustrating though, is to be this close to making my dream a reality and to be held in the same place for awhile, wondering when I'll get a break. But timing. This is for a reason. All of that jazz. As frustrating and annoying and time compromising as you are, you're just another step towards making my dreams come true. And so, I need you. I need to push through you.
I need pass this July! God be with me.
---
Today's post has been brought to you by inspiration from this. Brilliant.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Place your bets.
To make a jackpot in the future, you have to place your bets in the present.
- Carrie Bradshaw.
It's possible that I get too much wisdom from watching Sex and the City. Or maybe not. But I was sitting here watching a repeat - the one where they go to Atlantic City for Charlotte's birthday - and Carrie's seemingly trite metaphor about going for what you want (one that I've heard every time I've seen this episode but never bothered to consider) inspired this lightbulb moment!
If you have faith in anything - including yourself - then you have some sort of belief in that thing/person/being about something that you can't yet see. And the faith is there, in part, because you believe that one day, you will see what you believe in. If you truly have faith, then it's likely that you act according to your faith - you'll invest time, energy, emotions, money, etc. because you believe that you will get some sort of result from the object of your faith.
Acting according to faith is a gamble.
You don't know what you're gonna get from "placing your bet" on the object of your faith. There's never any guarantee. Still, you believe that the bet is worth placing, because the jackpot is of tremendous value. It's worth the risk. So you act according to your faith - not by anything you can see.
We live by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
I feel like a gambling addict. I've been doing SO MUCH these past few years, basing my actions, often, on my faith. And that faith is in God mostly - but also, in me, in my abilities, in my untapped potential. Like any gambling addict I've found myself in many tight situations - times when it seemed like I had nothing to gamble. Actually, I'm in one of those tight situations now... a situation that makes me question my faith. All these questions, and yet, I keep on rolling the dice.
If I'm interested in the future jackpot, the time to place my bet is always NOW.
- Carrie Bradshaw.
It's possible that I get too much wisdom from watching Sex and the City. Or maybe not. But I was sitting here watching a repeat - the one where they go to Atlantic City for Charlotte's birthday - and Carrie's seemingly trite metaphor about going for what you want (one that I've heard every time I've seen this episode but never bothered to consider) inspired this lightbulb moment!
If you have faith in anything - including yourself - then you have some sort of belief in that thing/person/being about something that you can't yet see. And the faith is there, in part, because you believe that one day, you will see what you believe in. If you truly have faith, then it's likely that you act according to your faith - you'll invest time, energy, emotions, money, etc. because you believe that you will get some sort of result from the object of your faith.
Acting according to faith is a gamble.
You don't know what you're gonna get from "placing your bet" on the object of your faith. There's never any guarantee. Still, you believe that the bet is worth placing, because the jackpot is of tremendous value. It's worth the risk. So you act according to your faith - not by anything you can see.
We live by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
I feel like a gambling addict. I've been doing SO MUCH these past few years, basing my actions, often, on my faith. And that faith is in God mostly - but also, in me, in my abilities, in my untapped potential. Like any gambling addict I've found myself in many tight situations - times when it seemed like I had nothing to gamble. Actually, I'm in one of those tight situations now... a situation that makes me question my faith. All these questions, and yet, I keep on rolling the dice.
If I'm interested in the future jackpot, the time to place my bet is always NOW.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
As long as it comes in.
When you blame others, you give up your power to change.
- Robert Anthony
If you're unemployed, don't blame your job situation on the economy. I don't.
I don't blame it on the fact that I just took the bar exam for the second time last week and I didn't pass the first time I took it.
I don't blame it on the fact that looking for a job while trying to study for the bar exam is crazy difficult, especially when you're also working at the same time as studying.
I also don't blame it on the limited amount of jobs in my chosen field in comparison to the number of applicants, or on the fact that the City of New York (as an employer) is on a hiring slowdown and has been for some time.
I don't blame it on these things, but I totally could and I'd say that most people in my position would. The aforementioned definitely have had an impact on my current lack of employment. They've had their impact but I've come to realize a few things this week as I resumed my job finding mission full force:
1. No one factor in my life can really be to blame for my lack of a job because they all have had their effect - and the blame game does not empower me at all to effect change and make things happen (so apropos, that quote!)
2. There are MAD job opportunities out there! (Yo, just check Monster or Careerbuilder or some other site. No joke.)
2a. There are mad job opportunities out there, although the majority of them may not be what I would want to do preferably.
3. I have so many skills that are applicable to so many different types of jobs and the only thing stopping me from applying to these different types of jobs is me.
3a. By me, I mean, my sense of entitlement...
It dawned on me this week that I have been going at this job search with a strong sense of entitlement, namely: I am entitled to work in a certain kind of job, which pays a certain level of pay and gives me a certain kind of experience. And that entitlement stems totally from the fact that I am no longer a 16-year-old with zero job experience, willing to do whatever kind of job she can do legally - but I am a 26-year-old doctorate-of-law recipient who bust. her. ass. earning that doctorate, who has worked in some form or fashion for almost 10 years (including the majority of her four years of law school) and thus has culled a significant amount of experience and skills to back her terminal degree.
As understandable and predictable (frankly) as this sense of entitlement is, it amounts to absolutely NOTHING in itself. Entitlement controls or dictates very little, if anything at all. Circumstances have to favor that sense of entitlement coming to fruition... and more importantly, GOD has to favor the sense of entitlement, I believe. I believe that, not only because of my faith in God generally, but because in the 10 years I've been employed, I have held at least two (absolutely amazing) positions that, on the surface, I was in no way entitled to hold... but I got the job and gained so much for them (so thankful for those, and all my experiences). But if circumstances/God don't favor me getting whatever it is I feel I'm "entitled" to, then its not likely to happen!
So I have officially let that sense of entitlement go. It feels good. And it feels like is my horizon has suddenly expanded. The sky was always the limit, but instead of those one or two paths I had in mind for going beyond the sky, now I see so many ways to go. It's sort of exciting. I'm not saying I won't be looking to be an attorney fighting the good fight for what's right, or writing/publishing that Great (Jamaican) American Novel (or book of poetry) but I am no longer limited in my search for employment by anything in existence, whether economy, entitlement or other.
Think about this. When you boil down the issue of employment, regardless of whether you're employed at your ideal position or not, there will always be left the core concern of whether your job can sustain you and provide you with all that you need to live (at a minimum) or prosper (ideally). And if the job isn't, you will likely adopt the secondary income mentality, which leads to looking for and finding an alternative source of income using some other skill set you've developed because you feel as if you need the money. My job finding mission hasn't changed in scope - I will not stop searching for what I ideally want - but it has now adopted the secondary income mentality, and is open to the possibility that the secondary income might just be the primary.
Income is just that, as long as it comes in.
N.B. When that income does come in, and my primary monetary concerns are addressed, this might just be the shoe purchase I use to celebrate...
It's nice to have something to look forward to.
- Robert Anthony
If you're unemployed, don't blame your job situation on the economy. I don't.
I don't blame it on the fact that I just took the bar exam for the second time last week and I didn't pass the first time I took it.
I don't blame it on the fact that looking for a job while trying to study for the bar exam is crazy difficult, especially when you're also working at the same time as studying.
I also don't blame it on the limited amount of jobs in my chosen field in comparison to the number of applicants, or on the fact that the City of New York (as an employer) is on a hiring slowdown and has been for some time.
I don't blame it on these things, but I totally could and I'd say that most people in my position would. The aforementioned definitely have had an impact on my current lack of employment. They've had their impact but I've come to realize a few things this week as I resumed my job finding mission full force:
1. No one factor in my life can really be to blame for my lack of a job because they all have had their effect - and the blame game does not empower me at all to effect change and make things happen (so apropos, that quote!)
2. There are MAD job opportunities out there! (Yo, just check Monster or Careerbuilder or some other site. No joke.)
2a. There are mad job opportunities out there, although the majority of them may not be what I would want to do preferably.
3. I have so many skills that are applicable to so many different types of jobs and the only thing stopping me from applying to these different types of jobs is me.
3a. By me, I mean, my sense of entitlement...
It dawned on me this week that I have been going at this job search with a strong sense of entitlement, namely: I am entitled to work in a certain kind of job, which pays a certain level of pay and gives me a certain kind of experience. And that entitlement stems totally from the fact that I am no longer a 16-year-old with zero job experience, willing to do whatever kind of job she can do legally - but I am a 26-year-old doctorate-of-law recipient who bust. her. ass. earning that doctorate, who has worked in some form or fashion for almost 10 years (including the majority of her four years of law school) and thus has culled a significant amount of experience and skills to back her terminal degree.
As understandable and predictable (frankly) as this sense of entitlement is, it amounts to absolutely NOTHING in itself. Entitlement controls or dictates very little, if anything at all. Circumstances have to favor that sense of entitlement coming to fruition... and more importantly, GOD has to favor the sense of entitlement, I believe. I believe that, not only because of my faith in God generally, but because in the 10 years I've been employed, I have held at least two (absolutely amazing) positions that, on the surface, I was in no way entitled to hold... but I got the job and gained so much for them (so thankful for those, and all my experiences). But if circumstances/God don't favor me getting whatever it is I feel I'm "entitled" to, then its not likely to happen!
So I have officially let that sense of entitlement go. It feels good. And it feels like is my horizon has suddenly expanded. The sky was always the limit, but instead of those one or two paths I had in mind for going beyond the sky, now I see so many ways to go. It's sort of exciting. I'm not saying I won't be looking to be an attorney fighting the good fight for what's right, or writing/publishing that Great (Jamaican) American Novel (or book of poetry) but I am no longer limited in my search for employment by anything in existence, whether economy, entitlement or other.
Think about this. When you boil down the issue of employment, regardless of whether you're employed at your ideal position or not, there will always be left the core concern of whether your job can sustain you and provide you with all that you need to live (at a minimum) or prosper (ideally). And if the job isn't, you will likely adopt the secondary income mentality, which leads to looking for and finding an alternative source of income using some other skill set you've developed because you feel as if you need the money. My job finding mission hasn't changed in scope - I will not stop searching for what I ideally want - but it has now adopted the secondary income mentality, and is open to the possibility that the secondary income might just be the primary.
Income is just that, as long as it comes in.
N.B. When that income does come in, and my primary monetary concerns are addressed, this might just be the shoe purchase I use to celebrate...
It's nice to have something to look forward to.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Three weeks.
I would love it if all that I were concerned about this month was the bar exam.
I remember last July, about three weeks before the exam. Apart from my quotidian affairs, all I had to be concerned about was the bar exam. And three weeks before the exam, that's all I cared to be concerned about. And that's the way it really should be when preparing for any bar exam. There was absolutely nothing else in my world to think about - at all. Even my friends and family: as much as I love them, I didn't even have the space of mind required to miss them three weeks before I took the bar exam last summer. Just me and those two days. It's surreal when I think about how I was just consumed, only, by that one thing.
And I came so close. But close doesn't cut it.
So here I am again, three weeks before the bar exam. Again. This time, however, I would like to today to be three weeks before I pass the bar exam. I wonder if that will be the case, considering that this time around, I have SO much to be concerned about. Matters having to do with the basics of life - the things that some people actually take for granted and for others become serious pressing matters, because they're that important. These are things that actually come way before the bar exam and practicing law in terms of importance to my life. And practicing law is pretty high on the importance scale of my life.
But what do you do when you're back's against the wall?
In the past few weeks, I've learned that when faced with such a situation, I fight.
I've never fought so hard for so much in all my life.
In such a situation, I also take steps out on faith.
Life right now feels like walking on air. Not floating - but taking concrete steps on something that I can't see with my eyes.
It feels as crazy as it probably sounds - but then I remember this - something I've always believed but never have actually lived until now. And it seems less crazy.
Forget learning the law. I've just been learning about myself.
(If only I were a topic on the bar exam!)
When I first learned that I didn't pass the exam, I questioned - "Why me? Why do I have to go through this again?" And although there are times when I still wish that I passed over the summer, I am beginning to see just why.
Things are difficult, but I'm beginning to see that I actually needed this difficulty. Everything that happens has its purpose and you just have to trust that it's for the best.
And if you're so inclined, you trust in God.
"Good timber does not grow with ease; the stronger the wind, the stronger the trees."
- J. Willard Marriott
(Oh, and forgive the rambling nature of this post. I really just needed to let this out! I'd edit - but I really need to get back to work.)
I remember last July, about three weeks before the exam. Apart from my quotidian affairs, all I had to be concerned about was the bar exam. And three weeks before the exam, that's all I cared to be concerned about. And that's the way it really should be when preparing for any bar exam. There was absolutely nothing else in my world to think about - at all. Even my friends and family: as much as I love them, I didn't even have the space of mind required to miss them three weeks before I took the bar exam last summer. Just me and those two days. It's surreal when I think about how I was just consumed, only, by that one thing.
And I came so close. But close doesn't cut it.
So here I am again, three weeks before the bar exam. Again. This time, however, I would like to today to be three weeks before I pass the bar exam. I wonder if that will be the case, considering that this time around, I have SO much to be concerned about. Matters having to do with the basics of life - the things that some people actually take for granted and for others become serious pressing matters, because they're that important. These are things that actually come way before the bar exam and practicing law in terms of importance to my life. And practicing law is pretty high on the importance scale of my life.
But what do you do when you're back's against the wall?
In the past few weeks, I've learned that when faced with such a situation, I fight.
I've never fought so hard for so much in all my life.
In such a situation, I also take steps out on faith.
Life right now feels like walking on air. Not floating - but taking concrete steps on something that I can't see with my eyes.
It feels as crazy as it probably sounds - but then I remember this - something I've always believed but never have actually lived until now. And it seems less crazy.
Forget learning the law. I've just been learning about myself.
(If only I were a topic on the bar exam!)
When I first learned that I didn't pass the exam, I questioned - "Why me? Why do I have to go through this again?" And although there are times when I still wish that I passed over the summer, I am beginning to see just why.
Things are difficult, but I'm beginning to see that I actually needed this difficulty. Everything that happens has its purpose and you just have to trust that it's for the best.
And if you're so inclined, you trust in God.
"Good timber does not grow with ease; the stronger the wind, the stronger the trees."
- J. Willard Marriott
(Oh, and forgive the rambling nature of this post. I really just needed to let this out! I'd edit - but I really need to get back to work.)
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Limitless.
There are days when I doubt myself. I think about all the things I wanna do with my life and then I hear "What? I'm not gonna do all that!"
I hate that voice. The You-Can't Voice. I hate the limits that it once has and still potentially could put on my life.
This morning, I accepted that this voice is a part of who I am, take it or leave it. I also accepted that fighting the YCV only gives the YCV strength - paying any attention to the YCV makes the things it says more likely to come true (in adherence with the law of attraction). The only way to truly reject Ms. YCV is to respect her existence, and shift my focus on my achieving my goals (like I would any other hater).
As soon as this happened, I checked my email inbox and saw my DailyOM horoscope for the day. I'd strongly suggest clicking the link (especially if you're a Taurus!) but in case you don't, the gist of the message was that today was a day where I might feel limitless in respect to my goals. Talk about being ON-POINT!
Limitless. Is it really possible to live a life without limit? I'm in the legal profession so not only do I know this isn't true - I have an understanding on just how some of those limits work. So then, it's not possible to live a live without ANY limit. But what about living a life with no limit to the greatness you can achieve?
I don't know the answer to that yet, but I intend to live my life trying to find the answer.
Limitless. I think I might add this to the list of my favorite words. Another one of my favorite words is:
ne plus ultra
Pronunciation: \ˌnā-ˌpləs-ˈəl-trə, ˌnē-\
Function:noun
Etymology: New Latin, (go) no more beyond
Date:1637
1 : the highest point capable of being attained : acme
2 : the most profound degree of a quality or state
© 2008 Merriam Webster Online
So technically it's not a word - more like a phrase - but when I saw this entry as my Merriam Webster Word of the Day back in June 2005 (God bless my memory) it automatically clicked with me. I remember that day I had been thinking about whether I had been living to my fullest potential and then saw the entry above. It clicked because the word/phrase means "the highest point capable of being attained" yet there's this back story (i.e., its etymology) that serves to remind that going to the highest point capable implies that there is a limit involved. At the time I had issues with going after my goals while respecting my natural God given limits - like for example, with time and sleep. Sleep is so important to success - learned that the hard way - and it's not worth sacrificing for an extra hour to get something done.
To live to my fullest potential, I HAVE to respect certain limits. Since 2005 I've learned to do this but now is the time for me to think and act and believe that what I can and will achieve is limitless. Is it possible to live limitlessly but within limits?
I'll have to get back to you on that.
One thing I do know is that the universe conspires to support me. Last night I needed to be reminded of this and lo and behold - I got the reminder via Twitter. The writer of this blog started following me right around the time I needed to remember this - and I just happened to be checking my email when Twitter sent me the notification. And so I checked his Twitter and his blog and what was his latest post called? The universe conspires to support you. I suggest you read his blog - it discusses the law of attraction really well - but if you don't, just understand that being open to the support of the universe is key to the support the universe will provide. Or in the words of a mullah that my friend heard during the Eid prayer:
God speaks to us, but our hearts need to be clear to hear it.
So I've been working on clearing my heart. Did a little bit just now by writing this - which I started because Ms. YCV started up her blathering as I watched Stylista and had a thought about something I would love to do. I hope your heart is clear enough to hear Him speaking to you.
I hate that voice. The You-Can't Voice. I hate the limits that it once has and still potentially could put on my life.
This morning, I accepted that this voice is a part of who I am, take it or leave it. I also accepted that fighting the YCV only gives the YCV strength - paying any attention to the YCV makes the things it says more likely to come true (in adherence with the law of attraction). The only way to truly reject Ms. YCV is to respect her existence, and shift my focus on my achieving my goals (like I would any other hater).
As soon as this happened, I checked my email inbox and saw my DailyOM horoscope for the day. I'd strongly suggest clicking the link (especially if you're a Taurus!) but in case you don't, the gist of the message was that today was a day where I might feel limitless in respect to my goals. Talk about being ON-POINT!
Limitless. Is it really possible to live a life without limit? I'm in the legal profession so not only do I know this isn't true - I have an understanding on just how some of those limits work. So then, it's not possible to live a live without ANY limit. But what about living a life with no limit to the greatness you can achieve?
I don't know the answer to that yet, but I intend to live my life trying to find the answer.
Limitless. I think I might add this to the list of my favorite words. Another one of my favorite words is:
ne plus ultra
Pronunciation: \ˌnā-ˌpləs-ˈəl-trə, ˌnē-\
Function:noun
Etymology: New Latin, (go) no more beyond
Date:1637
1 : the highest point capable of being attained : acme
2 : the most profound degree of a quality or state
© 2008 Merriam Webster Online
So technically it's not a word - more like a phrase - but when I saw this entry as my Merriam Webster Word of the Day back in June 2005 (God bless my memory) it automatically clicked with me. I remember that day I had been thinking about whether I had been living to my fullest potential and then saw the entry above. It clicked because the word/phrase means "the highest point capable of being attained" yet there's this back story (i.e., its etymology) that serves to remind that going to the highest point capable implies that there is a limit involved. At the time I had issues with going after my goals while respecting my natural God given limits - like for example, with time and sleep. Sleep is so important to success - learned that the hard way - and it's not worth sacrificing for an extra hour to get something done.
To live to my fullest potential, I HAVE to respect certain limits. Since 2005 I've learned to do this but now is the time for me to think and act and believe that what I can and will achieve is limitless. Is it possible to live limitlessly but within limits?
I'll have to get back to you on that.
One thing I do know is that the universe conspires to support me. Last night I needed to be reminded of this and lo and behold - I got the reminder via Twitter. The writer of this blog started following me right around the time I needed to remember this - and I just happened to be checking my email when Twitter sent me the notification. And so I checked his Twitter and his blog and what was his latest post called? The universe conspires to support you. I suggest you read his blog - it discusses the law of attraction really well - but if you don't, just understand that being open to the support of the universe is key to the support the universe will provide. Or in the words of a mullah that my friend heard during the Eid prayer:
God speaks to us, but our hearts need to be clear to hear it.
So I've been working on clearing my heart. Did a little bit just now by writing this - which I started because Ms. YCV started up her blathering as I watched Stylista and had a thought about something I would love to do. I hope your heart is clear enough to hear Him speaking to you.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
